The Darkener's Console

Your sword is no longer glowing.

“Nature’s Responses” —

Kill me and I’ll
Kill you first

I’ve already rehearsed

You worried of fire and flood
Of tainted blood

Now buried in mud

But you kept hurting me
With white hot machines

Your toxic regimes

But now I can see
And now you can’t breathe

Ironic it seems

So how does it feel?
Now is it real?

Positive Speed Sign —

I want to produce a radar speed sign that, instead of flashing and telling you to slow down if you are going over the speed limit (negative), shows an animation of balloons + dancing people when you are at or below speed limit (positive).

I’ve actually wanted for a long time to be able to change the wording on public signage everywhere (mostly speed limit signs

I know for sure that the seed for this kind of mentality was planted early in my life during a very specific scene of “Who’s the Boss?”. Who knew that me pondering this scene countless times throughout my life would produce an idea as AWESOME AS ^^^ !! =p~

Voting Machines —

Michael I. Shamos, a professor of computer science at Carnegie Mellon University who is a proponent of electronic voting and the examiner of electronic voting systems for Pennsylvania, stated “It’s the most severe security flaw ever discovered in a voting system.” Douglas W. Jones, a professor of computer science at the University of Iowa, stated “This is the barn door being wide open, while people were arguing over the lock on the front door.” Diebold spokesman David Bear played down the seriousness of the situation, asserting that “For there to be a problem here, you’re basically assuming a premise where you have some evil and nefarious election officials who would sneak in and introduce a piece of software. I don’t believe these evil elections people exist.

Selfish —

You’re so selfish
Why can’t you see this
You’re so selfish
Why can’t you be selfless
Like you pretend you are

Every move has strings attached
Now they’re withered and dry from friction (fiction)
And your desperate pleas to come back
Will still only feed your addiction, because

You’re so selfish
Why can’t you see this
You’re so selfish
Why can’t you be selfless
Like you pretend you are

Now, outside can I see
What you’ve always seemed to be
I’ve stepped out of your maze
But you’ll never be free, because

You’re so selfish
Why can’t you see this

You’re so selfish
Why can’t you be selfless
Like you pretend you are
Like you pretend you are

“Uncle Sam” – The Terrorists —

EDIT 2020/02/27: I always imagined the bridge (@ 1:51) of the eventual studio recorded version of this song would contain various clips from newscasters describing war scenes, current situations and general wartime fearmongering in a fictional war between the U.S. (the aggressor) and a random foreign country. As the bridge builds, the audio clips get more intense, accompanied by clips of in-battle war skirmish sounds – gunfire, explosions, aircraft, screaming of orders, screaming of fatally wounded soldiers – all of this then accompanied by rash clips of world leaders decrying manifestos, rants, charges at others – all mixed up in a blender and randomized/cut together into a fat blob of distortion and electricity and chaos – until the segway into the last chorus (@ 3:05). Fuck I’d love to do that still. Maybe I’m biased but this song rocks my fucking balls off. I miss playing it, I miss the energy I got from playing it. Travis, you’re a mastermind and this song is proof. Justin, who the fuck else could nail this song like you did on drums. Perfection.


Please excuse the rough recording, it was at a random practice at Amanda’s house. Ended up being one of the only recordings left after I deleted most of our stuff when the band fell apart. I wish I didn’t do that.

“The Terrorists” was a rock/punk/alternative band I was a part of in 2009-2010. The name was a play on the role the United States was playing on the world stage at the time. This one was one of my favorites.

Headphones —

Headphones make their own rules of etiquette. We assume that people wearing them are busy or oblivious, so now people wear them to appear busy or oblivious — even without music. Wearing soundless headphones is now a common solution to productivity blocks. Baldwin’s invention for the Navy has become a social accessory with a explicit message: I am here, but I am separate. In a wreck of people and activity, two plastic pieces connected by a wire create an aura of privacy.

Race —

This article is a very interesting history of Rock ‘n Roll music and the subject of race in its upbringing and subsequent widespread popularity.

I’m not old enough to have experienced what it describes but the Internet is filling in a lot of gaps for me. It’s very interesting how *who* played Rock ‘n Roll music had so much to do with the music itself, and how the conflict of some peoples’ moral standings drove them to try and bury those who enjoyed it.  This line kind of sums it up for me:

“This is not to suggest that the Rolling Stones were rendered as black, but rather that they were rendered something other than properly white.”

I’ve contemplated, many times, *why* exactly people are so afraid of those who look different than themselves. Skin color, body weight, sex, sexual orientation, style, …I came to the temporary conclusion this morning that the visual senses do more bad than good in a lot of cases. I kind of wish nobody had eyes sometimes.

EDIT: Visual appearances are one thing, but culture is likely, IMO, a very strong reason why people are the way they are when it comes to deciding whether to fear something or to accept/love something. Visual cues are a piece of the puzzle. This is an interesting thing to contemplate for me. Something to step back from and analyze from different levels of consciousness.. Likely more edits later.

EDIT 2: Ah, as I finish the article I learn new words…xenophobia!

Super C —

I don’t know if I could ever play 2 player with anyone besides my old friends Travis S. or Johnathan F. – I take my Super C strategies seriously. There has to be a strong link and sense of collective survival, otherwise I just would rather go it alone. No offense, it’s just easier that way.

Lucy —

It had to do with piecing together new thoughts in your mind.

Why is it that people think it’s so evil?

What is it about it, that scares people so deeply? Because they’re afraid that there is more to reality than they have confronted. That there are doors that they’re afraid to go in, and they don’t want us to go in there either, because if we go in we might learn something that they don’t know.

And that makes us a little out of their control.

Red Caskets —

Been like this
You drowned me in it
Now I see it
Now I see it

Things won’t ever be
What you want them to be
The dead branches don’t ever
Fall from your tree

Been like this
Never questioned it
Now I see past it
For what it is

Things won’t ever be
What you want them to be
The red caskets never
Bled just for me

Synchronize —

I picked up my bass for the first time in a little while. I ignored everything around me and just played for a few minutes.

I was able to get lost in the melodies/loops I was playing fairly quickly this time. I realized that for having been away from playing for a while the purpose of it. My mind completely disconnected from the physical reality around me. I felt a release; a letting-go of what normally spins circles in my consciousness. I had descended from that frequency into a lower one, “looking” around and realizing where I now stood.

I missed this place.

I dusted off the walls, I admired the soft glow of light around me, I felt the swirling of sound that enveloped my soul become more pronounced with each note I played. I wonder how I had ever wandered so far from here. I was so comfortable… it was all so familiar but it seemed like forever since I’d been here.

Our brains literally operate on distinct frequencies. It is up to us to “tune” them to the desired “station”. Playing my bass this afternoon for those few solitary minutes helped me remember that. This information is so key to our happiness, our well being. A tool to practice using, for sure.

Cigarette Girl (Studio) —

Me on bass with The Terrorists circa 2008 (Justin Sweet on Drums, Travis Brunetti on vox+guitar). You know at first I thought the main riff for this was cheesy, but it grew on me after we practiced it. Still one of my favorites that we played. I liked the live versions better, Travis normally used a more powerful voice than here (he likes his Elliot Smith voice though ;) )