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Family —

There’s a point in family development where the children grow up and should be treated as adults by their parents, aunts, uncles, grandparents, etc.. the authority of “elder” must evaporate and mutual respect must be given, as equals. If this shift does not happen and the (now adult) children are continuously treated as inferior, non-authoritative […]

Jimbo —

JimI saw you againAgain in a dreamYou weren’t so happyHappy to see me You came home and saw me andI remember your expressionIs it still your fucking chicken? Back when my gamesmasked all my tensionBack where the living roomBecame your regression You were a shimTo hold a woman togetherShe didn’t get any betterAnd you broke […]

The FoxIt Linux Fiasco —

Last night when I was off-site furiously doing a major upgrade on a client’s server I checked my email. I quickly glanced at the RKHUNTER logs sent to me by a script I crafted up a long time ago. They were for my primary Linux system at home. My heart skipped a couple of beats […]

reCaptcha v3 —

I’m impressed with reCaptcha v3. I haven’t gotten any spam through my contact forms on various sites I manage since I installed it. The best part is that I don’t have to subject any innocent people to clicking on endless pictures of storefronts, cars and traffic signals. I fucking hate that shit. I hate it […]

Performing Music —

What I learned about performing music (in the handful of times I actually have gotten to) was that you don’t have to play every note perfectly. Stage presence is more than half of what people remember. It’s the passion you have that is what makes the art awesome, and people resonate with that more than […]

Feelings —

There are events in my life that have evoked immense feelings. These feelings are very much personal in that I cannot transfer them to another person in a loss-less format. Meaning, I cannot create the exact same feelings in someone that I felt myself during those events. And logically so – we are all individuals […]

Fog —

Driving over the mountains this morning, the fog was heavy. Really heavy. It was hard to see through it. At first it was eerily beautiful, even comforting though cold and unforgiving. A pair of soft black gloves I’d purchased before the end of the year were my companions, along with the music coming from my […]

Borderline, Narcissism, Manipulation and Co-Dependence —

It’s becoming clear to me through the help of family and research that I grew up in a fairly textbook borderline, narcissistic, manipulative and co-dependent environment. It’s a hard reality to accept because as I read about these traits I understand that I inherited them and are a current part of me. Instead of fighting […]

Linux Keyboard Settings (x11) —

I turbocharged my keyboard delay & response with xset the other day (‘xset r rate 200 50’). I’m finally getting used to the increased-rapid-backspace. Before I was really annoyed at both the delay and the rate in which I could backspace. This is nice, almost too fast but like driving a clutch you just get […]

Little White Lies —

(Instrumental acoustic guitar – work in progress) Lyrics: Your little white lies They’re passing me by You think I’m a fool You got things to do Your little white lies You don’t even try I was always there for you I’m so through with you I’m gonna rise above it So take your words and […]

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Regarding UI/UX Design —

Reading comments on this Slashdot article and I found this very insightful comment by houghi regarding software user interfaces: “I liked it when each part of the software did its own thing and you could exchange it for something else, without any issues. Now we have a bootmanager that tries to do everything, starting a […]

Buzzwords —

“Hyper[insertwordhere]” is becoming annoying. I noticed this buzzword during the 2016 U.S. presidential elections and it seems to still be going strong. It’s annoying, but also interesting as a study in popular journalism trends. Trendsetters can use words like this to ‘boost’ their stories and ideas because of the effect of familiarity and repetition. Which […]

My Dead Friend —

I wrote this a number of years ago for a good friend when I was concerned he was going to commit suicide. It’s always been one of my favorites. My Dead Friend Why did you end it You weren’t an enumerate My dead friend You weren’t what you think I wish I’d taught you to […]

I’m currently listening to this for the first time since the mid-90’s (my brother owned this tape along with other Van Halen albums, my gratitude goes out to him for introducing me to then “modern” rock music and not just the oldies that our father’s jukebox played and the cheezy light-pop music of the local […]

The Building (Dream) —

I had a dream this morning about a building. I had to go to the bathroom I had apparently been working I.T. in floors 1-3 of the building for the entirety of my career (20+ years) I went up to the 4th floor of the building (toward the top). When I got there, there were […]

Amish —

Maybe the Amish are on the right track after all. It’s going to continue to get harder and harder for the general population to discern between reality and a fabrication. I feel a recursive trend here. Maybe we really are living in a holographic universe.