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This is a forest, with trees in all directions. To the east, there appears to be sunlight.

Ah, life —

One of the most sobering things I’ve experienced in life is watching videos I’ve taken of my friends and myself in my late teens / early 20’s (I’m in my early 40’s now).

We originally recorded them all on camcorders (yes kids, with actual tape) over the course of a number of years. Parties, outings, hanging out being bored together…

I’ve watched these videos in total many times. However it’s been years since I have. To see my general disposition and personality then is really fucking embarrassing to watch honestly. I guess I’ve grown up a lot. But back then, we thought we *already were* grown up (I guess in comparison to our earlier lives we were). But shit….we were still just kids, mentally and emotionally.

Maybe it’s the reflective mood I’m in the past few days but something’s drawing me to those videos, to learn and grow some more – to stand at the side of the cliff and see how far I’ve come.

I’ll take it.


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